Do you ever have an awakening moment?
one of those oh is this really what I m to do with my life moment?
Sunday as I sat in church feeling the arms around me that my husband has been sitting by me in church our whole married life and how lucky I am.This last year there has been a lot of different types of people entering my life and I have been keeping a distance because I did not want the unfamiliar I wanted the familiar. How can I help someone who is an alcoholic and addicted to drugs when I have never been there myself. As I sat there in church there was this awakening moment seriously wanted my computer then and there to blog my thoughts but I processed them for a day and here they are still streaming my brain. I know I am not where I am on accident I am so very blessed is so many ways and as the dynamics have changed in my women's group I lead I wanted to run I even got a little pissy and could not understand if I could deal with all this. Very different situations for me and yet I have been blessed with some great friendships that are solid and I am leaning on that and I know I need to do this I need to be there for these people. with boundaries of course. I am so very thankful for boundaries if you have not read that book I highly recommend it.
A few months back we have a young man that had started coming to church and he had a past but he was seeking and was starting to come around which is the first step for a lot of people. As he went out the door I did not know him and his father were going to be killed in a car accident that week. Since then I have met some great people some that struggle with addiction and some not but the church is filling up with people from a brother of his to his sister, friends and kids and so on. I have had wonderful opportunities and some I have ignored and then regretted so from this point on I will sit back and listen more to what the Lord wants me to do.
day by day
in the quiet timeslistening So no more being in the fog.... I want to be in the color